Sunday, September 11, 2016

Last Time Nursing

I'm silently crying right now.  I just nursed Bridget for the last time and my heart hurts.  Yes, I know it is past time to wean her; I know she is 19 months old today; I know she will be fine.  But my baby is becoming my child right before my eyes and I just want to press pause and revel in her baby-ness a little (ok a LOT) longer.

I have been her most favorite thing for the past 19 months.  She never wanted to pacifier (and I bought every single one they make trying to change her mind) and she stopped taking bottles at about 5 months old.  "Boob" was one of her first, and most clear, words.  She looked for me for food sure but more for comfort.  At times it was hard but mostly it was lovely.  And I am going to miss my time with my Bridgie.

I want to REMEMBER.  I want to remember the weight of her in my arms when she fully relaxed and then fell asleep.  I want to remember the quiet sucking and swallowing sounds that so often put me to sleep.  She loved to hold my ear or her own ear  - she pushes my head to the side and grabs a death hold on my ear folding it uncomfortably in half and rubbing it.  I want to remember how she could find my nipple with her eyes closed and from the time she was born until tonight she makes a little chomping sound as she latches on.  I want to remember how her feet kick, how she loves her cheek rubbed, how she locks eyes with mine.  I want to remember her (totally annoying) love of switching sides - she never wanted to stay on one side for long and would switch back and forth sometimes 10 times in a nursing session.  I want to remember her as a tiny thing sleeping in my arms in our bed at night and how I would wake up not to her crying but to her head butting my boobs.  I sometimes want to forget how she would head butt my chest while screaming 'BOOB" in public when she was older.

It's going to be a really hard few days coming up.  Bridgie has no desire to be weaned.  But I think it is time and I know we will both me OK.  

"I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My baby you'll be"

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Little Chef

Brendan loves to go to the Club and work with his dad.  He has lately loved to help at home too.  He has been helping me make dinner a few times as week and he is pretty great.  He wants to someday be on Chopped Junior so he has been working on his techniques!

Brendan's Sports Baby

Bridget wants to be just like Brendan!  Thankfully he is both patient and strong to help her!!!

5 Kids Under 8!

Uncle B and Aunt Liz went to a wedding for the weekend before Easter and we got to have Grace and Connor spend the weekend with us.  We played outside, rode in the magic car, watched a movie and had pizza, we went to an egg hunt at the Shores park, and had wild times in the basement.  It was exhausting on the adults and crazy fun for the kids.  Thank god for Sheila spending the weekend with us as well or I don't know if we would have survived!!!
FREEZING egg hunt!

The only one who wanted anything to do with the bunny and boy was Lainey happy to see him!  He scared Gracie so much she just wanted to go home!

Horse back riding after the petting zoo

Girls bath

Lainey and Grace slept together on the blow-up bed with Sheila in Lainey's bed with them.


Much needed nap on Sunday

Night-Night Bear

Like her brother before her Bridget has really connected to her lovie.  She only wants it when she is sleepy and it is just so cute how she snuggles with it.  She uses it like a pillow in her bed and sits hugging it while we read books.  

Future Author

Lainey has been writing and writing lately.  She loves to draw pictures and write stories about them.  She is always asking us to help staple together pages for the books she makes.  The strides she has taken in both her writing and drawing this past year are just incredible!

Her leprechaun trap

Hair by Aunt Lisa!

Disney On Ice

Daddy took his little princess on a special date.  Just the two of them went to see Disney on Ice together.  This is one lucky and very happy Snow White!